You never know what it's like. I sit here with his eyes open and actually looking at me. It hurts me to the core to look at him and see him crying, you can see it in his eyes, even though you never hear a sound. You never think that you would ever want your baby to cry, until the one you have can't.
You know this is just his life, everyday. When he is able to fight through the sedation enough to open his eyes, you know he is still looking through the medicine, all blurry and such.
If he could just smile, laugh, or even cry it would trump all of the bad stuff we have seen up until now. Just one minute to hold him, would means much.
Just some thoughts,
Hope everyone out there is having a good one
Chris
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